And he could keep up with all of them. Besides, he was a smoker and a drinker. Those vices made him feel proud because he thought them virtues, not vices. I started to see how my mom would cover her face in tears when my dad started talking about other women. I became full of anger and resentment. That resentment led me to my spiritual death. I saw with terrible anger how my dad humiliated my mom in front of everyone. I rebelled and I told my mom I would never be like her. ? That’s why we women are worthless, because of women like you, with no dignity and no pride who let men trample all over them!? And when I grew up, I told my dad? Mind you, I’ll never, ever, let a man humiliate mle in the same way you humiliate my mom. If a man is ever unfaithful to me, I’ll repay him!? He hit me and challenged me? Don’t even think about it!? My dad was very chauvinistic. I told him even if you hit me or kill me, if I ever get married and my husband is unfaithful to I will pay him back so men will understand how women suffer when men trample over them.? So, full of that resentment and anger, once I had made enough money I started telling my mom she should separate from my dad despite the fact that I really loved my dad. ? You shouldn’t put up with a man like that! Be dignified; make him see your worth!? Can you imagine? I was trying to make my own parents divorce! And mom would tell me? No, honey, of course I hurt, but I’ve sacrificed myself because I have seven children and because, at the end of the day, your dad is a good father and I couldn’t possibly leave and take your father away from you. Besides, if I leave him, who is going to pray for his salvation? I’m the only one who can pray so he will be saved, because the hurt and suffering he causes me, I raise to unite to the pain of Christ on the Cross. Every day I tell the Lord, This pain is nothing compared to your Cross, so please save my husband and children!? I didn’t understand that. My anger swelled and changed my life. I became a rebel and started promulgating my desire to defend women. I began defending abortion, cohabitation, and divorce, speaking out in favor of an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth?. I was never unfaithful but I harmed many people with my advice. When we came to the fifth commandment, the Lord showed me I was a horrible assassin and that I had committed the worst and most abominable in front of his eyes: an abortion. Money empowered me to pay for several abortions because I claimed women had a right to choose when they wanted to become pregnant or not. I saw in the book of life and
….To be continued
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